Former member of French Captain Philippe Kieffer’s green berets commando Leon Gautier, 96 years old, attends an interview with Reuters in Ouistreham, France, May 13, 2019. Photo: Reuters / Christian Hartmann.

Leon Gautier landed on Sword Beach in a hail of enemy fire on June 6, 1944, one of the first wave of French commandos to storm the Normandy beachfront defended by Hitler’s troops. Seventy-five years on, he still grapples with the memories.

Today, 96-year-old Gautier, his wit quick and memory sharp, lives just a few hundred meters from a German bunker he and comrades among the special forces of French Captain Philippe Kieffer were tasked with securing before pushing inland.

For the former marine commando, commemorations in June marking the 75th anniversary since more than 150,000 allied troops invaded France to drive out Nazi forces will be a time to reflect on fallen friends and foes alike.

“War is a misery. Not all that long ago, and perhaps you find this silly, but I would think, ‘Perhaps I killed a young lad, perhaps I orphaned children, perhaps I widowed a woman or made a mother cry,'” Gautier said wistfully.

“I didn’t want that, I’m not a bad man. You kill a man who’s done nothing to you, that’s war and you do it for your country.”

Gautier was 17 when Hitler’s forces occupied France. Too young to join the army, he enrolled in the navy and was aboard one of the last French warships to sail for Britain to join the Free French Forces of General Charles de Gaulle as the Germans swept across the northern half of France in 1940.

Four years later, he was one of 177 elite French commandos who would take part in the Normandy landings.

On the night of June 5-6, Gautier slept as his landing craft pitched and rolled across the English Channel before holding off the French coast as allied bombers and warships rained bombs and shells on the German coastal defenses.

Few veterans alive

The French troops were first to wade chest-deep onto the beach.

“Your honor,” Gautier recalled British Colonel Robert Dawson telling the French green berets, letting them lead. “We went in only a few seconds ahead. It was a symbolic gesture.”

Carrying his Tommy gun, two loaded chargers strapped around his chest, Gautier ran up the beach as bullets fizzed overhead, knowing he would narrow the gunners’ sweep the closer to the concrete bunker he got.

“By the end of the day I didn’t have many bullets left,” Gautier said, reluctant to delve deeper into the memory of witnessing countless young lives ended prematurely.

Gautier will be among a dwindling number of British, American, Canadian, and French veterans, the youngest among them now in their 90s, expected to mark the anniversary on Normandy’s windswept beaches and manicured war memorials.

World War II-era Dakota troop carriers will fly over the Channel, hundreds of parachutists will reenact the air-drops that launched the beach landings, and the Royal British Legion will ferry some 300 British veterans to France’s shores.

US President Donald Trump is due to visit the American war cemetery in Coleville-sur-Mer, which overlooks Omaha Beach, where more than 2,400 US troops were killed on D-Day.

On a breezy afternoon last week, the US Stars and Stripes fluttered above the cemetery’s 9,380 marble crosses, while visitors pondered the passing of the landings from living memory into the world’s collective history.

“I don’t know if the memory will fade a whole lot. We still talk about past revolutions and war,” said Don Robertson from Arizona. “It just takes a different perspective because you lose the immediate contact.”